Eight people in the house and one bathroom is absolutely crazy!
~Luv my hubby~

The House

A year and a half a go we rented a huge farm house. It has 6 bedrooms and sits on an acre or so. Very nice place. However, the well is always running dry and the cistern is not filling as it should. Then just this week Jasper noticed the house has dropped 6 inches on one corner of the house. This is NOT good. We may have to move. and that is just something I do not want to have to do.

There is a place I am going to go look at, but I think it will be way too small. It sounds like a nice place though. Too bad it isn't bigger. But I am going to go look at it just to see if there is any way possible we can fit.

Revival at the Church

We began Revival yesterday. Services have been wonderful. God has really been helping people. I am looking forward to see what God is going to do the rest of the week. The Blythes and Sis. Rita are really wonderful people.

Sweet Bella-Grace

Nothing sweeter!

Carl is going to potty!

This is a great thing in the Merrell house. Carl told me he had to go potty and ran to the bathroom. This was great! So we downloaded a chart and have used stickers to show his achievements!

Yay Carl!

It's Friday!

It is the weekend again, and It's going to be a busy one. I will be cooking for a Homecoming on Saturday, and then I will make lots of biscuits for Sunday Morning Bus Workers and people staying over from the Homecoming. There could be 50 people there for breakfast! Yikes! I will cook everything on Saturday morning I guess.

Sunday we begin Revival with the Blythes & Sis. Rita. I am looking forward to that. They are very talented singers and anointed preachers. It should be good!

Now I see.... There was an accident... Should get better from here on out.
~Luv my hubby~

Stuck in traffic.... Not fun
~Luv my hubby~

Prison Ministry

Jasper has had a door to open for him at the Page County Jail! He now will be preaching every Thursday Night! He will also help every month on a Monday with another Man. Thursday he will be completely in charge of the services. I am so happy for him!

We often tease him about not forgetting his "get out of jail free card"...lol What a change from 20 years ago. He was on the side of those he will be preaching to. God IS real and IS amazing!

Learning to post from my phone. This may be good for when I have something on my mind and am not near a computer.
~Luv my hubby~

Bella Grace 8 1/2 Months old

There is nothing like it!

I love it! Having Bella - Grace and Renee here is absolutely wonderful! I hate it that Renee has to work, but I am thankful we have the opportunity to babysit our baby girl! She is a stinker like the rest of the clan here...lol For the first time I got to rock her to sleep and it was such a sweet moment. I just hope poor Carl adjusts soon. He is not taking to well to sharing his Mama. Poor lil' guy!

He Is Mine

My Buddy and Me!

He is such a Q-T Pie!

Carl, I love his smile!

Carl had a mishap

The Two Way Chit Chat Phone By Little Tykes

About an hour after his finger was released

Right after his finger was released

These phones can be a problem so if you have one be careful.

Thankfully we were able to take it apart and release his finger.

Sorry they are not in order, I loaded in order but they didn't publish in order.

Long As I've Got King Jesus-Davis Family

This song pretty much says it.

My Sister

I love this picture. She did a reenactment and was beautiful in it.

It's Saturday...all day long

Took Renee' to work this morning and bought 6 news papers. (COUPONS) Bella Grace is down for a nap. Samuel cleaned Shorty's dog kennel and in a while we will be going to the Grocery store. I have to clean the kitchen, I hate the kitchen, who invented the things anyway. What in the world were they thinking? Uhg!!

Have a good weekend!

September 9, 2011

Things are better for me today. I am both physically and emotionally better. Keeping busy no doubt helps me. I have a lot to do to keep me busy. I have the usual household things and also trying to clean out and declutter. That takes a little more effort. But I like the end results.

Today is Friday! I am taking it easy, kinda relaxed today. Things are getting done, just slowly.

I have several calls I need to make. I haven't taken many calls since Sunday. It was the last thing I wanted to do was talk about it. I still tear up, but at least I can sleep now. I will return to church on Sunday. I kinda dread it. I know people want to show me support and I appreciate it, it just makes it harder to have everyone saying "I'm so sorry" over and over again. I will get through I am sure.

The children seem to be taking it better. They have been so sweet. I am a blessed woman. I love all my children!

Rose in the Cradle - Miscarriage Song

It was a long night

It seems like as soon as the lights go out, my mind breaks down. I shut my eyes and see those tiny legs and feet. It is just heartbreaking. I cried myself to sleep again last night. Jasper has taken the children with him today so that I can relax a bit.

I passed more material today. It was what looked like placenta. I hope and pray I do not have to have a D&C. I will monitor myself at home and if things do not decline I will have to go to Dr. I plan to buy several pregnancy tests and take until they read negative. When that happens I will know I am alright.

What a nightmare this has been.

It's never easy

I had noticed my pregnancy symptoms were getting less and less. I kept searching for the heartbeat with my Doppler. I think I did here is last week, but it was very faint. When more symptoms faded, I knew something was going wrong. I was clinging to hope that maybe, just maybe I was wrong. Then today, I woke and I knew something was wrong I was cramping and the symptom that was slowly fading, was gone. I went to the bathroom and I was bleeding. I was crushed. I knew it was hopeless. Jasper was in his recliner, I went to him, dropped to my knees and sobbed. He held me, I needed him and he was there. Held me and wiped tears as well.

Since it was Sunday, I encouraged him to go to church and he took Carl with him. I began to have contractions around 12:30 or so, and by 1:45, I had passed our precious baby. I held her in my hand and cried and told her I loved her. Her bottom, legs and feet were outside the sac. I could see what looked to be girl parts, so I named her Christiana Joy. I had taken that bleach test and it said girl, so I am going with that and what I saw. I will never forget her feet. So tiny. I could not bear to flush my baby, so we buried her. It was so sad, Rebecca cried so hard. It broke my heart again to see her pain. I just don't know if we will have anymore. I just don't know if I can bear the pain of another loss, that made 6. I know in a few days I will feel better emotionally. I am so thankful for the children I have living. I am so blessed.