Lost the baby 2/15/11

I did lose the baby at home. It was quite a painful short labor. I contracted for maybe an hour and it hurt very bad in my cervix. I passed the baby, who was easily seen in the sac of water not broken. I barely had time to react when I began to hemorrhage. It was very scary to say the least. I have been recovering well. I have a need of being close to DH, which is good. I don't know why I feel this way this time, but I have really wanted him close to me.

I recently went to the Dr and got the release to try again. Although we really were not just trying, I do feel I would want to try, but am scared to after what I went through. Not only that, but seeing a friend just one week later, lose hers at 20 weeks has been devastating! I am scared to even try.

I am to return to the Dr this next Wednesday for a routine Check up visit. The big ugly one every woman hates. I agreed to it because if I do get pregnant they wouldn't have to do a pap and make me risk my baby. I guess we will just see what happens.

It's time to begin potty training Carl! He is 2 and it is spring, those are the two things we look for to begin his next little phase in his life. I am not too sure how he will do though. He is such a energetic boy, even to get him to slow down to listen to anything you say is a chore. I am thinking of changing his diet to see if he settles down some.

I am hoping her surprises me and does well. who knows maybe he will be like older brother Samuel, he trained in 3 weeks! My easiest one! sigh, somehow I have a feeling he will be my hardest...lol

Miscarriage of Baby # 10

Well getting to 12 w 6 days should have been a time to relax and begin really enjoying my pregnancy. It was not the case. On Friday afternoon I had coughed and sort of choked and so I coughed hard. I pulled a ligament in the lower left of the abdomin and figured it would ease in a bit. After several minutes it did not and cramping became painful enough I was a bit worried. I went to the bathroom and there was blood, not alot, but enough to know something was wrong. Then it stopped. It did it again in the middle of the night.

Saturday I decided to go to the ER to find out what was going on. I knew when I left there I would know one way or the other about the baby. After 5 hours it was determined that I had what they call fetal demise. So I was losing the baby. I asked them could they tell about when it stopped developing and it was at 8 weeks when I had the flu. That was a bit hard to take for me. I had been worried for weeks about this.

So now It is 3 days later and I am still trying to pass the baby. I don't know how long this will take though. I have an appointment on the 22 for ultrasound and at that time we will decide what steps need to be taken.

11 weeks 5 day

I've been anxious since 8 weeks along. I had the flu and ran a fever. I did all I could to get well quickly. I drank plenty of water, Took Tylonal every 4 hours, and stayed in the bed. It took almost 2 weeks before I felt better. I was never so sick.

I am waiting for insurance to go through so that I can make an appointment to see the Dr. I so want to hear this baby's heart beating.

Hopefully after taxes come, I can get a doppler to monitor the baby when ever I want. You would think with this being my 10th pregnancy I would not sweat it...sigh